1. Peace

    I love the state of feeling at peace within myself, with others….the serenity inside like the sea on a beautiful sunny day after a turbulent storm. I think it’s normal to fluctuate emotionally I know this calmness isn’t permanent but sometimes I wonder if it actually can be…

    The over thinking of life is what causes the turbulence….where am I? Where should I be? What does he/she think? What am I going to do next? We consistently torment ourselves….but why? What does it all matter??? We can’t control what happens in the next moment even if we planned every single second of our life, there are still bound to be a lieu of unexpected moments. Now I’m not saying to wing everything (like I do at times) lol….plan but don’t obsess. Set goals and work really hard towards them. Also, prepare to surrender to the moments that belong in your life whether they are the ones you look forward to or the tough lessons that you don’t realize at the moment you need. We learn from every experience and every single person that comes in our lives.

    The most important things are
    ….what are you doing at this moment that will get you closer to your goal?
    ….what do YOU think & feel?
    Realize that you are exactly where you should be and can only change the decisions you make at this current moment….not the ones you made yesterday or will make tomorrow.
    That is what creates serenity within….


    Love + Light

    Jae Lux

  2. The perfect career

    I am not sure where I concluded that there is this perfect career out there just for me. I have been feeling scattered up until this moment, confused about what I was going to do with my life. Yes! I have so many different interests and they fluctuate as the years have gone by. I realized this weekend while attending a workshop that its not about what I was passionate about as a child, 10 years ago, 3 years ago….last month….it comes down to what am I passionate about right NOW!
    There will never be actual perfection but everything that happens is perfect for my journey and that’s the beauty of it. We don’t see it in the moment, but I am sure looking back I will be grateful for all the tumbles, falls and all the moments I felt lost at sea. It will lead me exactly where I need to be.

    So what’s next?
    Discipline, focus and energy towards all the greatness I want to achieve.

    Love + Light,

    Jae
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  3. Lol….my dream life!

    Lol….my dream life!

  4. My latest body ink is a tribute to myself and my latest birthday. I have been in a cocoon for a few years now finally this is the year where the true transformation takes place. I will have the courage to take on 2 large projects. One is my fitness goal to compete the other to finish my fiction novel and get it into the hands of an editor. It’s the promise I am making to allow myself to be seen and continue to inspire others.

Here are some tid bits about the butterfly and the word courageous as explained by Dr. Brene Brown who I admire and follow her extensive research.

The Butterfly: Biological Characteristics

Butterflies are insects. Consider however, that insects succeed as a group because of six primary qualities:

1. Their ability to fly enables them to spread. 2. They are extremely adaptable to their environment and climatic conditions. 3. Their external skeleton provides a kind of armor of self-protection. 4. Their small size keeps their demands meager and accessible. 5. The ability to delay fertilization until conditions are beneficial enables their species to survive. 6. They undergo multiple changes (metamorphosis) to facilitate and carry on life.

All of these traits can be viewed symbolically as ideas to assist humans to be more successful within their own lives. While we cannot fly, we can ensure that we don’t get stuck in what is too comfortable. We don’t have exoskeletons, but we can develop sensitivity to the energies around us and strengthen ourselves to be less victimized by those energies. We can be less wasteful in our lives and keep our demands small. We can build and do a little at a time so that it becomes great over time instead of trying to accomplish all at once. Probably most importantly, metamorphosis is inevitable… and life becomes more difficult on many levels when we resist its natural flow.

Metamorphosis is the magic that insects can teach us. Change ensures growth. We have to shed the old before we can come into the new. We give birth to ideas, activities, or qualities. Ideas and creativity need to be shaped, formed, developed and honed. After this is accomplished, the new foundation is laid. Sometimes, we need to back off and go deeply within after laying a foundation so that creation will be able to come forth strong and in a new light. Just as the adult butterfly only emerges when conditions are right, our ideas and activities will only flourish on a higher level when conditions are right. That is the force of creation – the only constant is that we are always changing.

Symbolism and Power

Butterfly is the power of air, the ability to float upon a breeze. It is known for its darting flight; thus, it represents the mind and our ability to change it when necessary. Butterfly represents the never-ending cycle of life; therefore, its medicine bestows not only the ability, but the clarity of mind needed before self-transformation.

Butterflies appear to dance as they flitter among the flowers. They remind us not to take things so seriously within our lives. They awaken a sense of lightness and joy. They remind us to get up and move, for if you do not move, you cannot dance.

The Lesson

The lesson of the butterfly is letting go of old behavior and expounding into the next phase of existence. Each of us transforms through multiple stages in our life. It is only through exertion that we emerge into who we will be next. Ask for butterfly help when:

You need help organizing a project or detailing the sequence of steps to complete it. You know it is time for a change and need the courage to break free from your “cocoon.” You are experiencing a major life change. You take things too seriously.

Courageous

The root of the word courage is cor—the Latin word for heart. In one of its earliest forms, the word courage literally had a very different definition than it does today. Courage originally meant “To speak one’s mind by telling all one’s heart.” Over time, this definition has actually changed, and today, courage is synonymous with being heroic or performing brave deeds.

Heroics and bravery are important, but I think we’ve lost touch with the idea that speaking honestly and openly about who we and about our experiences (good and bad) is the ultimate act of courage. Heroics is often about putting your life on the line. Courage is about putting your vulnerability on the line. In today’s world, that’s pretty extraordinary.

For me, practicing courage means telling my story with all of my heart. It means being honest about who I am, what I believe, and how I feel. It doesn’t come easy for me – I have a tendency to self-protect – but it really is about practicing authenticity and letting myself be seen.

Wholehearted living is about engaging in our lives from a place of worthiness. It means cultivating the courage, compassion, and connection to wake up in the morning and think, No matter what gets done and how much is left undone, I am enough. It’s going to bed at night thinking, Yes, I am imperfect and vulnerable and sometimes afraid, but that doesn’t change the truth that I am also brave and worthy of love and belonging.”

Courage is born out of vulnerability not strength.

    My latest body ink is a tribute to myself and my latest birthday. I have been in a cocoon for a few years now finally this is the year where the true transformation takes place. I will have the courage to take on 2 large projects. One is my fitness goal to compete the other to finish my fiction novel and get it into the hands of an editor. It’s the promise I am making to allow myself to be seen and continue to inspire others.

    Here are some tid bits about the butterfly and the word courageous as explained by Dr. Brene Brown who I admire and follow her extensive research.

    The Butterfly: Biological Characteristics

    Butterflies are insects. Consider however, that insects succeed as a group because of six primary qualities:

    1. Their ability to fly enables them to spread. 2. They are extremely adaptable to their environment and climatic conditions. 3. Their external skeleton provides a kind of armor of self-protection. 4. Their small size keeps their demands meager and accessible. 5. The ability to delay fertilization until conditions are beneficial enables their species to survive. 6. They undergo multiple changes (metamorphosis) to facilitate and carry on life.

    All of these traits can be viewed symbolically as ideas to assist humans to be more successful within their own lives. While we cannot fly, we can ensure that we don’t get stuck in what is too comfortable. We don’t have exoskeletons, but we can develop sensitivity to the energies around us and strengthen ourselves to be less victimized by those energies. We can be less wasteful in our lives and keep our demands small. We can build and do a little at a time so that it becomes great over time instead of trying to accomplish all at once. Probably most importantly, metamorphosis is inevitable… and life becomes more difficult on many levels when we resist its natural flow.

    Metamorphosis is the magic that insects can teach us. Change ensures growth. We have to shed the old before we can come into the new. We give birth to ideas, activities, or qualities. Ideas and creativity need to be shaped, formed, developed and honed. After this is accomplished, the new foundation is laid. Sometimes, we need to back off and go deeply within after laying a foundation so that creation will be able to come forth strong and in a new light. Just as the adult butterfly only emerges when conditions are right, our ideas and activities will only flourish on a higher level when conditions are right. That is the force of creation – the only constant is that we are always changing.

    Symbolism and Power

    Butterfly is the power of air, the ability to float upon a breeze. It is known for its darting flight; thus, it represents the mind and our ability to change it when necessary. Butterfly represents the never-ending cycle of life; therefore, its medicine bestows not only the ability, but the clarity of mind needed before self-transformation.

    Butterflies appear to dance as they flitter among the flowers. They remind us not to take things so seriously within our lives. They awaken a sense of lightness and joy. They remind us to get up and move, for if you do not move, you cannot dance.

    The Lesson

    The lesson of the butterfly is letting go of old behavior and expounding into the next phase of existence. Each of us transforms through multiple stages in our life. It is only through exertion that we emerge into who we will be next. Ask for butterfly help when:

    You need help organizing a project or detailing the sequence of steps to complete it. You know it is time for a change and need the courage to break free from your “cocoon.” You are experiencing a major life change. You take things too seriously.

    Courageous

    The root of the word courage is cor—the Latin word for heart. In one of its earliest forms, the word courage literally had a very different definition than it does today. Courage originally meant “To speak one’s mind by telling all one’s heart.” Over time, this definition has actually changed, and today, courage is synonymous with being heroic or performing brave deeds.

    Heroics and bravery are important, but I think we’ve lost touch with the idea that speaking honestly and openly about who we and about our experiences (good and bad) is the ultimate act of courage. Heroics is often about putting your life on the line. Courage is about putting your vulnerability on the line. In today’s world, that’s pretty extraordinary.

    For me, practicing courage means telling my story with all of my heart. It means being honest about who I am, what I believe, and how I feel. It doesn’t come easy for me – I have a tendency to self-protect – but it really is about practicing authenticity and letting myself be seen.

    Wholehearted living is about engaging in our lives from a place of worthiness. It means cultivating the courage, compassion, and connection to wake up in the morning and think, No matter what gets done and how much is left undone, I am enough. It’s going to bed at night thinking, Yes, I am imperfect and vulnerable and sometimes afraid, but that doesn’t change the truth that I am also brave and worthy of love and belonging.”

    Courage is born out of vulnerability not strength.

  5. "People often meet their destiny on the road they take to avoid it"- French Proverb

    "People often meet their destiny on the road they take to avoid it"- French Proverb

  6. Follow me at Fat2Fitwomen
fat2fitwomen:

Weight is not approximate, I remember my start and end weight, it gets a bit blurry in between. I wish at the time I would have kept better record but I never thought I would have lost all that weight, I was just taking it one day at a time. 
I hope that this inspires and motivates you!

    Follow me at Fat2Fitwomen

    fat2fitwomen:

    Weight is not approximate, I remember my start and end weight, it gets a bit blurry in between. I wish at the time I would have kept better record but I never thought I would have lost all that weight, I was just taking it one day at a time. 

    I hope that this inspires and motivates you!

  7. It’s that simple!

    It’s that simple!

  8. It is difficult not to react sometimes, when you react you give your power to something/someone else. 

    It is difficult not to react sometimes, when you react you give your power to something/someone else. 

  9. Evidence

    Finally! Evidence of everything that I know I am capable of attaining. Slowly all the pieces of my grand masterpiece are coming together. My vision is becoming clearer it feels great. I feel accomplished even if its a minor one…..evidence that I can do what I set out to do. You can too, DON’T GIVE UP!

    It took me a few years to get to the point of truly knowing what I want and its not clear cut yet and far from perfect. I made many mistakes, I failed numerous amounts of times and there will be more failures, I WILL NEVER stop fighting for myself.  I can almost taste the success. 

    Today I took another small step in the direction of my ultimate vision and I feel victorious….to many more successes! 

    Lets celebrate together, chase what you want out of life and ignore, discard the things that you don’t. FOCUS on the positive….that is positive energy, people, thoughts and GO!!!

    Love + Light

    Jae Lux

  10. Note to self…..it’s ok to let go

    It is unfortunate when you are in your own path of growth and no longer fit into the standards of other people; their expectations constantly beating you. They judge you…misunderstand you, sometimes talk about you (that hurts) and take everything personally. The worst part about this is when it is someone you have been very close to; a good friend. 

    We are all growing, sometimes its apart other times its closer together…

    I have stopped holding onto what should have been or what should be and just accept what is. It doesn’t mean I don’t care about them anymore or love them…I am just giving them their space. I will always have an open heart and be there if they ever call, that is just who I am. It doesn’t mean I have to accept being looked down upon. If you are busy judging me then you have no time to love me….that is the TRUTH. 

    “Love is the ability and willingness to allow those that you care for to be what they choose for themselves without any insistence that they satisfy you.”- Wayne Dyer

    I am not judging you for judging me; it’s an awareness that maybe I just don’t belong in your space at this time and I accept that.

    Love + Light

    Jae Lux

    *disclosure: this wasn’t written for a specific intended target, it’s how I feel about anyone that fits this specific mold, if you feel offended… it might be guilt, or maybe it isn’t. I guess you are the only one that can decide…

About me



I am an aspiring writer currently working on my first novel & first time NPC competitor. (I haven't decided which division yet...Bikini or Figure) Follow me to the stage!


The proud Mother of 2 loving, innovative & very handsome little boys. Luckily married to the most understanding, supportive, loving man who loves me for ME entirely.
It wasn't always this way but the 3 c's have supported us along the way, the 3 c's are: Commitment, Compassion & Communication. We are complete opposites, that makes our relationship fun interesting and sometimes frustrating :/ lol
I am not a believer of many of the conventional ideologies, I question it all....I don't watch much T.V. I enjoy reading & thinking, i'm addicted to mental stimulation. My curiousity gave birth to my vivid imagination.
One thing i KNOW for sure is that I will never have all the answers, I will go in search of them but if at the end of each day a lesson is learned....that is a victory! This is a compilation of the lessons I have learned and continue to learn.... Follow Me on Pinterest

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